Mystery of existence
There is only one purpose in this purposeless existence and this purpose hides within your current experience. No more, no less. Look around yourself, touch your body; everything, absolutely everything is screaming with and reflecting your own Being. Have you ever wondered how this monumental existence comes into play and how reality is being created? You, or what you consider yourself, are constantly burning in the furnace of inner emotions, feelings and tactile sensations. Every second of your life, emotions, like clouds in the sky, come and go. Along with thoughts, emotions and feelings construct this reality. And this little, illusory “I” starts to believe in the game, called “Life”. Your attitudes are highly impacted with the current state of your mind. When feeling great, reality seems magical; when feeling low, everything is grey. This is how projections come into play.
If you withdraw from the emotional state and talkative mind, you’ll clearly see that your essence can be compared with a container – an empty one. Everything comes and goes but You are always the same: empty, untouched, undisturbed. And this emptiness elates from just the pure fact of existence
Almost every one of us, at least once in life, experienced unbearable pain. Sometimes we wonder if the only meaning of this life is to bear the pain and drawn-in suffering. Chasing the far away future, we stay unsatisfied in the present moment. Only a few of us can go deeper into the Being, becoming this silent observer, where the observer and observation become one experience.
Every single moment reality offers you a flavor but there is no compromise for a taste. You are constantly being fed some content regardless if you are desiring it or not. There is no way in, nor a way out. You forget, you remember. Stubborn thoughts are eating your mind, thousands of sensations go through your body, feelings arise… You can suppress, you can deny, you can even forget, for a while, but the trick is the loop repeats itself over and over again. These familiar questions of “why am I here?” or “what’s the purpose of life” become regular guests in your mind. Seems like there is a mystery, there is a secret, but who and what are creating this quest?
The answer is God, or Consciousness if you wish. Conscious God hides Itself so that it can be found, and then celebrated by Itself in every single moment. This same moment gives birth to your being, which we used to call “I”. Even though, in the darkest moments of your life, this celebration looks like the greatest sorrow, existence is all there is, with regards of your definition or conditioning, this experience is You. And this is what you long for and want with all your being. Yes, fear and pain are the content of the package as well. And yes, as absurd as it sounds, you yearn for them as well. You just don’t know it yet. Believe or not, you’d rather be something then not be at all.
So, what is your essence? Absolutely everything permeates with you. You are in everything, you contain everything, you reflect everything, and the mere fact of reflection is you as well. But you are not what you think you are. Don’t seek yourself in sophisticated texts or eloquent statements; they won’t explain your being. You are enclosed in symbols which define your being, but you are not the symbols themselves. You’re hiding here, between these phrases, but what you are looking for can never be found. Shuffle perceptions, toss all your thoughts…you are not even within the perception itself. Keep the ecstasy for a little bit longer and let the Love unfold. Because in this quest, you bury the dearest, and this is what you desire: to seek and experience yourself forever!
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